I feel like a weird internet stalker

I am almost certainly 100% against myself for admitting to this, but I honestly feel like its a decently large part of the experience- making friends.

So there is a website called ¨meetup.com¨ and I cant remember how I found it, perhaps on the au pair website I used? Anyway, you go and type in your city and people organize group meetings in different catagories, for example ¨New in Town¨ or ¨American expats in Madrid¨ ect.. I am completely anti-going-out-on-my-own in a strange city to a meeting with strange people in a bar-y atmosphere, BUT im not above looking at their meetup profiles and imagining what they would be like were I to go to a meeting and talk to them. we´re all the same, eh? anyway i found a section for au pairs, blah, blah and a girl who is about to leave recommended facebook as a way to contact other au pairs and said she found her two best friends on a group and so on and so on.

Its a strange feeling being here alone and simply seeing the facebook group for au pairs in madrid made my world feel a little bit smaller. needless to say, my pride is at negative 0 and im not ashamed to say that im desperate for friends. to have someone that i can relate to in age, interests, job (!!!!), because if i know one thing, its that no one can understand this experience until they´ve been through it all too. the small awkward moments that make up each day, the language barriers, the kids.. im dying to have a really good laugh and to drink a little too much beer and to ask someones opinion about the new shoes i saw in a store a few days ago, a coffee, museum, concerts, traveling.

I feel really hopeful AND everything with the family is smooth, like butta baby. The mother and father are going out of town tomorrow and so its my first true test. Im strong, I am invincible, I am woman (?) and Im going to be enforcer. GOOD NEWS though is that the children are going to a friends house on friday and they´ll be away all weekend so the point of this whole post is that on monday ill either admit to sitting on the couch all weekend drooling OR ill have intricately detailed narratives about the escapades of my new friends and me.

woo im tired from all that running. on. of my sentences.

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